For someone who prefers words over numbers, I’m always ensconced in figures. I count my steps when I jog and sometimes I count my chews if I’m eating something crunchy or yes, you guessed it, chewy. “Up, up, up,” is my way of counting the steps for my dog, who is vision impaired, as we enter the house after a walk. Thirteen. The number of stairs to my second floor. Why do I know this? Because I count them every time I climb them.
Numbers cause me to procrastinate. My intention has been for some time to write a post weekly and publish on Mondays. After several days pass by without a new entry for the beginning of the week, I always tell myself I will write the next week or the first of the next month or on a special day, like my work anniversary, which was on the second of this month. Unfortunately I missed that day, too and found myself back to counting again, to determine the next best time.
Since this type of counting continues to work against me, I am beginning to think about some of the things I committed to work on this year. “Focus on your word of the year, ‘maintain,’ in order to stay motivated and moving,” I tell myself. These thoughts caused me to begin wondering about resolutions and their origin. After a quick Google search I discovered that credit goes to the Babylonians for making the first New Year’s resolutions 4,000 years ago, who were followed by the Romans many years later. Though those first new year vows were made to gods, modern day resolutions are focused usually on personal promises. Does my word of the year count as a resolution?
It is well known that despite the small percentage of new year resolutions that are kept for any significant amount of time, people still make them. Perhaps it has become a ritual to attempt to make a difference at the beginning of each new year but because of a lack of follow through, it is difficult to break the cycle of just starting and progress is impeded. This reminds me of my counting, such as when I count syllables, words on billboards or paragraphs as I’m type (four so far). I don’t know why I do this.
And now, instead of continuing to count keystrokes (I keep losing my place, anyway), I’ve committed to finishing this post, regardless of the day of the week, and publish it. I believe there’s something positive to be said for spontaneity and completion. I’ve decided that I’m going to take advantage of the moment and make today count.